Sixteen
"Where are you going?" Camila asked Kyung Mi as she was about to leave the house without her.
"I'm going to this veterinary clinic Joo Hyun told me about. He said they are looking for an assistant to assist the vet." Kyung Mi, while she dug up on her bag looking for something.
"And you're applying?" Camila answered. Kyung Mi nodded.
"Alright. Wait for me" Camila went to their room to get her purse. When she got back Kyung Mi, "You're not going with me, aren't you?". Camila let out a loud laugh and came to a halt, "Yeah. Nice try. Let's go".
Kyung Mi
I need this job. Now that it's clear I can't go back to school. It's too risky. That eruos might come back anytime. I'm actually thinking we should leave the house as soon as possible. But before I do that, I need a job and no one can stop me, even Camila. Ha, Try me. There are so many things I've done to reach where I am today. I won't let anything or anyone to go against my goal to live a normal life. I'm sure my twin is doing good. She haven't contacted me ever since we were, what, 15? Whatever. I need to get this done. I'm sure this will be a good start. Yay for me.
When we arrive to the veterinary clinic, the place was quite shabby but not bad though. The veterinarian isn't bad himself. He was about in his 40s. A little bit off though, he looked older than his age. Don't get me wrong, I mean his body isn't proportion to his weight like he had a bad flu few days ago but he said he's coping.
"I had this bad flu weeks ago. But I'm catching up. Here, take a seat" he said as he gave me coffee on the reception area of his clinic.
"Are you alone here, sir?" I asked. I wondered actually that he was the one who prepared coffee for us. Doesn't he have a maid or whatever something to help? Duh. That might be the reason he needed an assistant. Stupid of me.
"I used to have an assistant but she needed to study again for college. I have to let her go." He answered then gave us a little touch of his cough. Yikes.
"Are the both of you applying for the position? 'Coz I think having two assistant would be awesome." Oh great. I can hear Camila celebrating now. I rolled my eyes.
"Would that be possible?" I asked.
"Yeah. Yeah, definitely" he answered.
As much as I want Camila here with me, it would be really hard to get away from her. I mean she's the primary reason why me and Josefin chose to be isolated from her, so technically this will beat the purpose of our plan. Sigh, anyways atleast my twin sister out there is far from Camila. Atleast one of us does. We are probably gonna redo our plan on our next lives then. Joo Hyun suddenly came to my mind. The boy is so nice and I can't help but think that he has a thing for me and he definitely made my burdens lighter than it should be. I'm gonna thank him for all of these someday. I looked at Camila and she's already signing some papers on the table.
"Hey, what are you doing?" I immediately asked her. There's no way we are already hired. We haven't even had the interview yet.
"Uhmm.. signing?" she answered turning her head from the papers to me. I looked at the vet and he's out of sight anymore, I looked around and no sign of him.
"Where did the vet go?" but Camila didn't answer. I tapped her shoulders as hard as I could to get her attention, "Ya!"
"Oh my god Joselin, will ya calm down? He just went to the washroom." Camila answered me but with a rolling eyes. Pissed off, I grabbed the papers she's signing and read it. It's the contract. 6 months on probation and a not bad salary to start from and we can start as soon as possible.
"Will ya cut that crap out? If you don't want the job then go look for another one. I'm totally fine here" Camila said. I frowned and handed over the paper, "What crap?".
"Your face is telling me like you're disgusted with the contract".
"No. No, I'm cool with it. Yay". I said with a sarcastic tone.
This is really happening. I'm gonna be with Camila 24/7 of my life. Great. Just great. I took a deep breath and asked Camila where my papers are and she handed over to me. And just like that. We are hired. Thanks to Joo Hyun.
As we said our goodbyes to the vet and agreed to start next week, I suddenly felt a jolt through my spine and everything went on slow-mo. Gosh I hate this whenever it happens. I had to put a show that I didn't notice every single of it. I tried to walk out form the door as normal as I could and as expected Camila stopped behind me. She's feeling it also right now. An eruo is just around the corner. I bit my lower lip and tried to look back at Camila. Her eyes was about to pop, "Hey, what's wrong?" I asked and slowly walked back towards her. She didn't answer and I poked her shoulder, "Hey". She looked at me and cupped my elbow, "We have to go. Fast!". I tried to ask her why, Duh like I don't know but I have to disguise myself. She doesn't have to know. She pulled me as fast as she could and went the opposite way going to my house. I looked back to check for the eruo but still no sign. Maybe he's not near to us yet. Camila dragged me to the park where there are lots of people around. Yeah right like that's gonna stop the eruo. "Why are we here?" I asked. Camila pushed me down to the bench and looked around.
"There's an eruo back there at the vet's clinic" she told me, panting.
"What should we do then?" I asked.
"For now. we have to stay here where it's crowded." She finally sits down.
"Why? They don't like to put up on a show?"
"Most likely yes. They don't want to cause a commotion as much as possible".
"Then we should live here!" I joked. Camila looked at me and her eyes are like guns ready to aim. I rested my back looked at the sky. closing my eyes. The idea of us running away like this, frustrates me. We didn't plan this. All we thought was that as much as we stay away from Camila, the eruos will be the same. But in this lifetime, the eruos seems to be stronger than the last we fought them and Camila's a big fucking magnet of them. That's why we want to get rid of her. Josefin and I have this theory that if we ever get rid of her, we will have normal lives. But it looks like we gonna have to try again on our next lives. But that's too soon to predict. Right now, Josefin might be having the time of her life. We will have to see if the eruos will track her on her 26th birthday in the next 2 months. I wonder where she lives right now. I want to check on her. I want to know if everything's normal but it's been a decade since we last talked. I'm not sure if she's still living in that same place. Sigh. How should I know when Camila's here with me already. Damn. I open my eyes and look at Camila. She's resting her back as well.
"Why don't you just kill them?" I asked, just for the sake of conversation. I know too well that Camila can take them down with just one shot but she's probably worried about the exposure. I rolled my eyes in my mind. Too much worrying can kill us. I think I have to remind her that. Camila opened her eyes and straightened her back.
"There's better timing for that" she answered and closed her eyes again. I crossed my arms and said, "Well..we could end up being killed by them if we keep running away like this". She didn't answer. See, she tends to be this annoying and that made easy for us to do our plans. Sometime she's a pain in the ass. Bossy and stuff. Like she's the savior of our lives. Pffftt. Whatever.
When we came back, the house is a total mess. The memory of my aunt suddenly came to me. I shrugged it off and check if my valuable things are intact. Camila assumed it's the eruos who did this, but we'll never know. A burglar might do. Right?
Unfortunately, my things are still here. So yeah, it's positive that the eruos were here. Again. The eruos can track me as clear as the water. My trace is in me once I turned 26 and soon Josefin will share the same fate as me. Hopefully, not. Before we died from our past lives, my twin and I looked for some help to erase our traces so that the eruos can't track us down as well as the overseer. Lucky of us we found this shaman and agreed to helped us without something in return. But he made it clear from us that there's no power in this world that can erase traces. What he can do is just shield us from them and it could fade through time. Josefin thought that once we are shaded, our lives will be normal like we've wished for the past years of our lives and that we just have to worry about the next years if this really works. Obviously, it didn't work absolutely as planned. Camila found me and so as the eruos. But I'm not sure with Josefin's trace if it's totally shaded. Like I said. There's only one way to find out and that is to wait for her 26th birthday. If no one attacked her, then the shade worked but if it's the other way around, we might have to find a shaman to try things out all over again. This intervention of ours might take a century to work but we are desperate enough to overcome those coming years of trial and error.
I found Camila standing outside, arms crossed and looks like thinking deep. I joined her there and asked what's the plan after this. It's obvious the eruos knows where I live so there's no reason anymore to stay here.
"Do you have somewhere else to live?" she asked me. I shook my head but I thought of Josefin and shrugged it off immediately. We can live with her, but that's the most idiot thing to do right now and she might probably kill me for bringing Camila to her. Ha.ha.ha. But seriously, I really have to talk to her. I have to report this and tell her that my shade didn't work on me. But how am I suppose to that? Camila sticks with me like leech. Geez. So annoying but somehow, I'm thankful. She has saved my ass for quite sometime now.
"We can rent if you want. We both have jobs right?" I said. She looked at me like she won a lotto jackpot. "That's it Joselin! We can ask for a salary advance from the vet and look for some place to live. How's that?". Yeah it's a good plan but I don't think the vet will do us a favor like that, but we can try.
"Should we go back there now?" I asked.
"Yeah! C'mon!" she dragged me once again. Seriously, Camila should learn to stop dragging me like a dog.
Meanwhile..
Dae Hyun
My other hand didn't take it and cupped her face as well. The tears started to fall on her face and there's no way I could endure that. I know she's hurt. I played with her feelings and I will do anything to reverse that.
"I'm sorry" I closed my eyes and rest my forehead to hers. She held my hands and slowly pulled it down from her face. I looked at her, tears won't stop to fall. Damn this is killing me.
Jin Ae
My world felt it stopped in this very moment. I wanted to disappear. All my hunches about him are wrong. He didn't like me. He just want to punish me from what I've done to his father. The thought of it alone is tearing me apart. I couldn't move. I can't believe this is happening again. I'm doing my best to avoid these things but I guess I'm too weak to control my own feelings. What should I do? I want to run and never come back. But his touch kept me from doing it. I'm stuck from where I am standing right now. I'm stuck in front of him so close I couldn't breathe. I want to slap his face but I just can't.
Dae Hyun
I want to hug her. I feel if I hug her, this lump in my chest will all go away. But I'm frozen. I can't think of a way to stop those tears from killing me.
Jin Ae
I finally found my strength to leave this instant. I pulled out his hand from my face. I have to leave. Now.
Dae Hyun
Damn, she's leaving. She's leaving the hell out from me. No don't leave. I want this to work out. She turned her back from me but I'm still frozen. A part of me is saying that I deserve this. I toyed her feelings. I didn't realize my feelings for her back then but now I'm sure. I want her. Only her. But all I can do is stand behind and watch her leave. It's cutting me into pieces. I'm ashamed of myself. Such a coward.
I let her leave me right this moment. I don't know maybe it's for the best. But damn, I can't just let her go. No way. I followed outside right before she pushed the elevator button going down from my unit. I caught her arm and turn her facing me.
"Don't leave. Please" I'm doomed. Now I'm begging but I don't fucking care.
"Dae Hyun. I need to. Or else..." she answered shaking her head, still crying.
"Or else, what? Please don't leave. We can start all over again. The right way". I felt like she stopped breathing when I said what I have to say. But when I was about to confess my feelings, yeah it's now or never, the elevator beeps and opens. A familiar lady came out and called my name.
"Hi Dae Hyun" she called. God this lady knows the right timing huh? I didn't let go of Jin Ae's arm. No, I won't. Never will I ever let her go. But the lady came straight to me and kissed my cheek. Woah. Seriously? Out of my surprise, I didn't notice that my hand no longer holding Jin Ae's arm and I just saw her walk inside the elevator and the door closed. Shit. I tried to stop the door from closing but it was too late. I thought of the stairs but this lady kept holding me.
"Who the hell are you!?" I finally asked the lady. I'm so mad I don't care if I beat this lady out of my unit. Damn.
"Oppa... don't you remember?" she asked tracing her finger in my chest like writing something I couldn't decipher.
"What?!" I shouted.
"You were with me last night. You gave me your address and said you will treat me for lunch today." she said. What a flirt.
I closed my eyes and try to remember what happened last night but not a single thing came out. I don't remember her. Maybe I was too drunk to remember. Damn I didn't even remember who took me home. I picked my phone from my pocket and called In Jung. I also let loose from this lady koala. She's annoying the hell out of me.
"Ya, who took me home last night?" I asked him immediately.
"Yo bro of course I did. Who else would do that?" In Jung answered.
"Damn it In Jung. I'm serious. Who took me home? There's a lady here claiming that I gave her my number and asked her out to lunch" I pinched the bone between my eyes trying to think.
"Oh. She's probably the girl who you made out with last night". Oh now I'm doomed. I kissed this lady?
"Fuck you In Jung don't play with me"
"Yeah man, I'm serious"
"Then why the hell didn't you stop me!?" I hang up the phone and almost threw it on the wall. Damn, this is pissing me off. I tried to call Jin Ae but her phone went off. I don't need another problem to deal with so I pushed the lady back to the elevator and said my goodbye. Luckily she didn't come back.
I went back inside and took a shower. The only thing that's running in my mind is Jin Ae. I don't give a fuck even If I have to beg. I hate to admit but I'm desperate. I want her to know how sorry I am that I played her feelings but I'm more than willing to start over again. I'd like to try things with her and I will do anything for her. The cold rush of water from the shower relaxes me a bit but I need something to cool this shit off. This is a bad day indeed.
After I took a shower, I called In Jung again.
"You wanna play soccer?" I asked.
"Bro, you sure cool enough to play?" Yeah. I want to beat your ass off!
"Are you free or not?" My patience over this guy is on the limit I swear but he's a friend almost like a brother to me. We've been friends since god knows when. But I couldn't count the times we beat each other.
"Yeah man. See you then!" He hung up and I started to get dressed. Playing soccer is like my outlet. I feel in a different world whenever I'm playing soccer.
Jin Ae
It took a while for me to get hold of myself. I stayed at my car and cry my feelings out. I blame myself for not being strong to what my beliefs are. I knew very well from the start that he's nothing like a bastard just like my ex. Why the hell I believed that there's a tiny chance he's different? That's so stupid of me. Now here I am, wanting to slap my face and remind myself that guys are all like that. They like you first but when things go well through time, they will leave you hanging like nothing happened between the two of you at all. I hate the fact that I was so strong and choosy but when the time comes that I was so sure if he's the one, he'll leave. That's exactly what I'm going through right now. Not once but twice. Why the heck am I not learning my lesson? Shit this life. Then it hit me. I have to leave. I have to go far away and start a new life. Would that be possible? Yes, of course. That's what I'm good at. I always run away. Me and my twin are sure of this trait. Speaking of my twin, dang I wonder what's she's doing right now? Did the shade work on her? As for myself, I think it worked. No eruos have been bothering me since I gain consciousness in this lifetime. But I don't want to talk to soon. I still have to make sure and I will find that out on my 26th birthday.
As I was about to drive myself out of this place, I saw the girl who kissed Dae Hyun a while ago in the hallways. She was waiting for a cab. That bitch. I wanna pull those hair till she asks for mercy and rip those dress of hers then leave her naked on the streets. My palm is itching to do that. My god, how can he do that to me? How can Dae Hyun ask for my marriage knowing that he has a girlfriend? And my god, I should say he should work on with his taste to girls. This bitch looks like a prostitute.
I passed through the bitch with my window down. I put on my sunnies making sure she sees me. If it weren't for my manners and family background, I would've thrown her my middle finger. Anyways, as I drive back home, I can still feel Dae Hyun's touch on my face. How can I fall out from this guy when my body and soul is asking for more of him? I wanted to go back and tell him that I really want to start over again with him but how can I be sure that he's not gonna leave me? Should I try? I shook my head wanting to snap away the idea of going back at him. This is too much. I don't want to think about him anymore. Enough of Dae Hyun. I might just leave the country and start a business somewhere else. But what about my twin? We promised to live in one country so in case something went wrong, we would find each other effortlessly. The both of us can leave actually. All I should do is find her and go some place else. I picked up my phone and look for Joselin's phone number. I'm just not sure if this is her number. I've stopped communicating to her since we were 15. I don't know maybe I was too carried away of how successful my life is. The number rings and a familiar voice answered.
"Hello?"
"Hello?? Joselin?"
"Who is this?....... wait" Joselin said. I can hear voices on the background and cars. I think she's outside. "Josefin? is this you?" she whispered.
"Yeah. What's up? How's things goin'?" I asked. I made it as casual as I could. I don't want to make her worry that I'm torn now. Torn inside and out. Tears started to fall when I heard her voice. I miss my sister. All of our lives we're together. We just decided to go apart this time wishing to have a normal life. My life is normal, it's just something's missing.
"Camila is with me" she answered. Oh my god. She found her. I stopped the car. My hand suddenly felt numb. We're doomed.
"How did that happened? Are you sure it's her?" I have to make sure.
"Yeah. She's here with me right now. Just lower your voice. I managed to stay a couple of steps away from her. We're looking for some place to rent 'coz the eruos knew where I am staying now". Just knowing that the eruos have found her makes me shaking. How the hell the shade didn't work. "How about you? How's your shade?" she asked me.
"I'm totally fine here. No eruos whatsoever." I hear sighed a relief. "But, I want to leave this place now. Will you go with me? Let's go abroad and start all over again. Maybe the eruos won't find us there." I said with a lump on my throat. "Are you crying Josefin?". Great, she noticed. "Uhmm.. yeah. Just something happened with the family but everything's good. I just want to leave" I cleared my throat. "No way. Camila is here with me. I can't leave without her. She sticks with me like a leech." Yeah. She's right. If we leave together, that only means risking my life with the eruos. "Can we meet?" that's all I can ask to her right now. I want someone I know to talk about Dae Hyun. "I have to go Josefin. Talk to you later. She's coming. Bye.".
The whole word felt like crashing over me right now. I have no one to talk to. I have no friends, well I have a few but no one will understand me. My mom would probably go nuts if she heard that Dae Hyun will call off the wedding. She likes him too much that if she's not my mother, I would think she likes Dae Hyun so much she would leave my father for him. Oh yes, my father. God how can I forgot about him.
"Hey pop. Busy?"
"A bit. I'm here at the office with Dae Hyun's father" Seriously? How can my life be so miserable like this?
I took a deep breath and answered, "Ah alright. I...uhmm..just checking you out. Take care pop. Bye." I hang up the phone and bump my head on the steering wheel. I bump it several times wishing a brilliant idea would come up. Oh god, just take my life so I can start all over again. I promise not to live in this country and stay away from falling in love. Tears started to fall once again. I wiped them out and raised my head and drive back home.
"Where are you going?" Camila asked Kyung Mi as she was about to leave the house without her.
"I'm going to this veterinary clinic Joo Hyun told me about. He said they are looking for an assistant to assist the vet." Kyung Mi, while she dug up on her bag looking for something.
"And you're applying?" Camila answered. Kyung Mi nodded.
"Alright. Wait for me" Camila went to their room to get her purse. When she got back Kyung Mi, "You're not going with me, aren't you?". Camila let out a loud laugh and came to a halt, "Yeah. Nice try. Let's go".
Kyung Mi
I need this job. Now that it's clear I can't go back to school. It's too risky. That eruos might come back anytime. I'm actually thinking we should leave the house as soon as possible. But before I do that, I need a job and no one can stop me, even Camila. Ha, Try me. There are so many things I've done to reach where I am today. I won't let anything or anyone to go against my goal to live a normal life. I'm sure my twin is doing good. She haven't contacted me ever since we were, what, 15? Whatever. I need to get this done. I'm sure this will be a good start. Yay for me.
When we arrive to the veterinary clinic, the place was quite shabby but not bad though. The veterinarian isn't bad himself. He was about in his 40s. A little bit off though, he looked older than his age. Don't get me wrong, I mean his body isn't proportion to his weight like he had a bad flu few days ago but he said he's coping.
"I had this bad flu weeks ago. But I'm catching up. Here, take a seat" he said as he gave me coffee on the reception area of his clinic.
"Are you alone here, sir?" I asked. I wondered actually that he was the one who prepared coffee for us. Doesn't he have a maid or whatever something to help? Duh. That might be the reason he needed an assistant. Stupid of me.
"I used to have an assistant but she needed to study again for college. I have to let her go." He answered then gave us a little touch of his cough. Yikes.
"Are the both of you applying for the position? 'Coz I think having two assistant would be awesome." Oh great. I can hear Camila celebrating now. I rolled my eyes.
"Would that be possible?" I asked.
"Yeah. Yeah, definitely" he answered.
As much as I want Camila here with me, it would be really hard to get away from her. I mean she's the primary reason why me and Josefin chose to be isolated from her, so technically this will beat the purpose of our plan. Sigh, anyways atleast my twin sister out there is far from Camila. Atleast one of us does. We are probably gonna redo our plan on our next lives then. Joo Hyun suddenly came to my mind. The boy is so nice and I can't help but think that he has a thing for me and he definitely made my burdens lighter than it should be. I'm gonna thank him for all of these someday. I looked at Camila and she's already signing some papers on the table.
"Hey, what are you doing?" I immediately asked her. There's no way we are already hired. We haven't even had the interview yet.
"Uhmm.. signing?" she answered turning her head from the papers to me. I looked at the vet and he's out of sight anymore, I looked around and no sign of him.
"Where did the vet go?" but Camila didn't answer. I tapped her shoulders as hard as I could to get her attention, "Ya!"
"Oh my god Joselin, will ya calm down? He just went to the washroom." Camila answered me but with a rolling eyes. Pissed off, I grabbed the papers she's signing and read it. It's the contract. 6 months on probation and a not bad salary to start from and we can start as soon as possible.
"Will ya cut that crap out? If you don't want the job then go look for another one. I'm totally fine here" Camila said. I frowned and handed over the paper, "What crap?".
"Your face is telling me like you're disgusted with the contract".
"No. No, I'm cool with it. Yay". I said with a sarcastic tone.
This is really happening. I'm gonna be with Camila 24/7 of my life. Great. Just great. I took a deep breath and asked Camila where my papers are and she handed over to me. And just like that. We are hired. Thanks to Joo Hyun.
As we said our goodbyes to the vet and agreed to start next week, I suddenly felt a jolt through my spine and everything went on slow-mo. Gosh I hate this whenever it happens. I had to put a show that I didn't notice every single of it. I tried to walk out form the door as normal as I could and as expected Camila stopped behind me. She's feeling it also right now. An eruo is just around the corner. I bit my lower lip and tried to look back at Camila. Her eyes was about to pop, "Hey, what's wrong?" I asked and slowly walked back towards her. She didn't answer and I poked her shoulder, "Hey". She looked at me and cupped my elbow, "We have to go. Fast!". I tried to ask her why, Duh like I don't know but I have to disguise myself. She doesn't have to know. She pulled me as fast as she could and went the opposite way going to my house. I looked back to check for the eruo but still no sign. Maybe he's not near to us yet. Camila dragged me to the park where there are lots of people around. Yeah right like that's gonna stop the eruo. "Why are we here?" I asked. Camila pushed me down to the bench and looked around.
"There's an eruo back there at the vet's clinic" she told me, panting.
"What should we do then?" I asked.
"For now. we have to stay here where it's crowded." She finally sits down.
"Why? They don't like to put up on a show?"
"Most likely yes. They don't want to cause a commotion as much as possible".
"Then we should live here!" I joked. Camila looked at me and her eyes are like guns ready to aim. I rested my back looked at the sky. closing my eyes. The idea of us running away like this, frustrates me. We didn't plan this. All we thought was that as much as we stay away from Camila, the eruos will be the same. But in this lifetime, the eruos seems to be stronger than the last we fought them and Camila's a big fucking magnet of them. That's why we want to get rid of her. Josefin and I have this theory that if we ever get rid of her, we will have normal lives. But it looks like we gonna have to try again on our next lives. But that's too soon to predict. Right now, Josefin might be having the time of her life. We will have to see if the eruos will track her on her 26th birthday in the next 2 months. I wonder where she lives right now. I want to check on her. I want to know if everything's normal but it's been a decade since we last talked. I'm not sure if she's still living in that same place. Sigh. How should I know when Camila's here with me already. Damn. I open my eyes and look at Camila. She's resting her back as well.
"Why don't you just kill them?" I asked, just for the sake of conversation. I know too well that Camila can take them down with just one shot but she's probably worried about the exposure. I rolled my eyes in my mind. Too much worrying can kill us. I think I have to remind her that. Camila opened her eyes and straightened her back.
"There's better timing for that" she answered and closed her eyes again. I crossed my arms and said, "Well..we could end up being killed by them if we keep running away like this". She didn't answer. See, she tends to be this annoying and that made easy for us to do our plans. Sometime she's a pain in the ass. Bossy and stuff. Like she's the savior of our lives. Pffftt. Whatever.
When we came back, the house is a total mess. The memory of my aunt suddenly came to me. I shrugged it off and check if my valuable things are intact. Camila assumed it's the eruos who did this, but we'll never know. A burglar might do. Right?
Unfortunately, my things are still here. So yeah, it's positive that the eruos were here. Again. The eruos can track me as clear as the water. My trace is in me once I turned 26 and soon Josefin will share the same fate as me. Hopefully, not. Before we died from our past lives, my twin and I looked for some help to erase our traces so that the eruos can't track us down as well as the overseer. Lucky of us we found this shaman and agreed to helped us without something in return. But he made it clear from us that there's no power in this world that can erase traces. What he can do is just shield us from them and it could fade through time. Josefin thought that once we are shaded, our lives will be normal like we've wished for the past years of our lives and that we just have to worry about the next years if this really works. Obviously, it didn't work absolutely as planned. Camila found me and so as the eruos. But I'm not sure with Josefin's trace if it's totally shaded. Like I said. There's only one way to find out and that is to wait for her 26th birthday. If no one attacked her, then the shade worked but if it's the other way around, we might have to find a shaman to try things out all over again. This intervention of ours might take a century to work but we are desperate enough to overcome those coming years of trial and error.
I found Camila standing outside, arms crossed and looks like thinking deep. I joined her there and asked what's the plan after this. It's obvious the eruos knows where I live so there's no reason anymore to stay here.
"Do you have somewhere else to live?" she asked me. I shook my head but I thought of Josefin and shrugged it off immediately. We can live with her, but that's the most idiot thing to do right now and she might probably kill me for bringing Camila to her. Ha.ha.ha. But seriously, I really have to talk to her. I have to report this and tell her that my shade didn't work on me. But how am I suppose to that? Camila sticks with me like leech. Geez. So annoying but somehow, I'm thankful. She has saved my ass for quite sometime now.
"We can rent if you want. We both have jobs right?" I said. She looked at me like she won a lotto jackpot. "That's it Joselin! We can ask for a salary advance from the vet and look for some place to live. How's that?". Yeah it's a good plan but I don't think the vet will do us a favor like that, but we can try.
"Should we go back there now?" I asked.
"Yeah! C'mon!" she dragged me once again. Seriously, Camila should learn to stop dragging me like a dog.
Meanwhile..
Dae Hyun
My other hand didn't take it and cupped her face as well. The tears started to fall on her face and there's no way I could endure that. I know she's hurt. I played with her feelings and I will do anything to reverse that.
"I'm sorry" I closed my eyes and rest my forehead to hers. She held my hands and slowly pulled it down from her face. I looked at her, tears won't stop to fall. Damn this is killing me.
Jin Ae
My world felt it stopped in this very moment. I wanted to disappear. All my hunches about him are wrong. He didn't like me. He just want to punish me from what I've done to his father. The thought of it alone is tearing me apart. I couldn't move. I can't believe this is happening again. I'm doing my best to avoid these things but I guess I'm too weak to control my own feelings. What should I do? I want to run and never come back. But his touch kept me from doing it. I'm stuck from where I am standing right now. I'm stuck in front of him so close I couldn't breathe. I want to slap his face but I just can't.
Dae Hyun
I want to hug her. I feel if I hug her, this lump in my chest will all go away. But I'm frozen. I can't think of a way to stop those tears from killing me.
Jin Ae
I finally found my strength to leave this instant. I pulled out his hand from my face. I have to leave. Now.
Dae Hyun
Damn, she's leaving. She's leaving the hell out from me. No don't leave. I want this to work out. She turned her back from me but I'm still frozen. A part of me is saying that I deserve this. I toyed her feelings. I didn't realize my feelings for her back then but now I'm sure. I want her. Only her. But all I can do is stand behind and watch her leave. It's cutting me into pieces. I'm ashamed of myself. Such a coward.
I let her leave me right this moment. I don't know maybe it's for the best. But damn, I can't just let her go. No way. I followed outside right before she pushed the elevator button going down from my unit. I caught her arm and turn her facing me.
"Don't leave. Please" I'm doomed. Now I'm begging but I don't fucking care.
"Dae Hyun. I need to. Or else..." she answered shaking her head, still crying.
"Or else, what? Please don't leave. We can start all over again. The right way". I felt like she stopped breathing when I said what I have to say. But when I was about to confess my feelings, yeah it's now or never, the elevator beeps and opens. A familiar lady came out and called my name.
"Hi Dae Hyun" she called. God this lady knows the right timing huh? I didn't let go of Jin Ae's arm. No, I won't. Never will I ever let her go. But the lady came straight to me and kissed my cheek. Woah. Seriously? Out of my surprise, I didn't notice that my hand no longer holding Jin Ae's arm and I just saw her walk inside the elevator and the door closed. Shit. I tried to stop the door from closing but it was too late. I thought of the stairs but this lady kept holding me.
"Who the hell are you!?" I finally asked the lady. I'm so mad I don't care if I beat this lady out of my unit. Damn.
"Oppa... don't you remember?" she asked tracing her finger in my chest like writing something I couldn't decipher.
"What?!" I shouted.
"You were with me last night. You gave me your address and said you will treat me for lunch today." she said. What a flirt.
I closed my eyes and try to remember what happened last night but not a single thing came out. I don't remember her. Maybe I was too drunk to remember. Damn I didn't even remember who took me home. I picked my phone from my pocket and called In Jung. I also let loose from this lady koala. She's annoying the hell out of me.
"Ya, who took me home last night?" I asked him immediately.
"Yo bro of course I did. Who else would do that?" In Jung answered.
"Damn it In Jung. I'm serious. Who took me home? There's a lady here claiming that I gave her my number and asked her out to lunch" I pinched the bone between my eyes trying to think.
"Oh. She's probably the girl who you made out with last night". Oh now I'm doomed. I kissed this lady?
"Fuck you In Jung don't play with me"
"Yeah man, I'm serious"
"Then why the hell didn't you stop me!?" I hang up the phone and almost threw it on the wall. Damn, this is pissing me off. I tried to call Jin Ae but her phone went off. I don't need another problem to deal with so I pushed the lady back to the elevator and said my goodbye. Luckily she didn't come back.
I went back inside and took a shower. The only thing that's running in my mind is Jin Ae. I don't give a fuck even If I have to beg. I hate to admit but I'm desperate. I want her to know how sorry I am that I played her feelings but I'm more than willing to start over again. I'd like to try things with her and I will do anything for her. The cold rush of water from the shower relaxes me a bit but I need something to cool this shit off. This is a bad day indeed.
After I took a shower, I called In Jung again.
"You wanna play soccer?" I asked.
"Bro, you sure cool enough to play?" Yeah. I want to beat your ass off!
"Are you free or not?" My patience over this guy is on the limit I swear but he's a friend almost like a brother to me. We've been friends since god knows when. But I couldn't count the times we beat each other.
"Yeah man. See you then!" He hung up and I started to get dressed. Playing soccer is like my outlet. I feel in a different world whenever I'm playing soccer.
Jin Ae
It took a while for me to get hold of myself. I stayed at my car and cry my feelings out. I blame myself for not being strong to what my beliefs are. I knew very well from the start that he's nothing like a bastard just like my ex. Why the hell I believed that there's a tiny chance he's different? That's so stupid of me. Now here I am, wanting to slap my face and remind myself that guys are all like that. They like you first but when things go well through time, they will leave you hanging like nothing happened between the two of you at all. I hate the fact that I was so strong and choosy but when the time comes that I was so sure if he's the one, he'll leave. That's exactly what I'm going through right now. Not once but twice. Why the heck am I not learning my lesson? Shit this life. Then it hit me. I have to leave. I have to go far away and start a new life. Would that be possible? Yes, of course. That's what I'm good at. I always run away. Me and my twin are sure of this trait. Speaking of my twin, dang I wonder what's she's doing right now? Did the shade work on her? As for myself, I think it worked. No eruos have been bothering me since I gain consciousness in this lifetime. But I don't want to talk to soon. I still have to make sure and I will find that out on my 26th birthday.
As I was about to drive myself out of this place, I saw the girl who kissed Dae Hyun a while ago in the hallways. She was waiting for a cab. That bitch. I wanna pull those hair till she asks for mercy and rip those dress of hers then leave her naked on the streets. My palm is itching to do that. My god, how can he do that to me? How can Dae Hyun ask for my marriage knowing that he has a girlfriend? And my god, I should say he should work on with his taste to girls. This bitch looks like a prostitute.
I passed through the bitch with my window down. I put on my sunnies making sure she sees me. If it weren't for my manners and family background, I would've thrown her my middle finger. Anyways, as I drive back home, I can still feel Dae Hyun's touch on my face. How can I fall out from this guy when my body and soul is asking for more of him? I wanted to go back and tell him that I really want to start over again with him but how can I be sure that he's not gonna leave me? Should I try? I shook my head wanting to snap away the idea of going back at him. This is too much. I don't want to think about him anymore. Enough of Dae Hyun. I might just leave the country and start a business somewhere else. But what about my twin? We promised to live in one country so in case something went wrong, we would find each other effortlessly. The both of us can leave actually. All I should do is find her and go some place else. I picked up my phone and look for Joselin's phone number. I'm just not sure if this is her number. I've stopped communicating to her since we were 15. I don't know maybe I was too carried away of how successful my life is. The number rings and a familiar voice answered.
"Hello?"
"Hello?? Joselin?"
"Who is this?....... wait" Joselin said. I can hear voices on the background and cars. I think she's outside. "Josefin? is this you?" she whispered.
"Yeah. What's up? How's things goin'?" I asked. I made it as casual as I could. I don't want to make her worry that I'm torn now. Torn inside and out. Tears started to fall when I heard her voice. I miss my sister. All of our lives we're together. We just decided to go apart this time wishing to have a normal life. My life is normal, it's just something's missing.
"Camila is with me" she answered. Oh my god. She found her. I stopped the car. My hand suddenly felt numb. We're doomed.
"How did that happened? Are you sure it's her?" I have to make sure.
"Yeah. She's here with me right now. Just lower your voice. I managed to stay a couple of steps away from her. We're looking for some place to rent 'coz the eruos knew where I am staying now". Just knowing that the eruos have found her makes me shaking. How the hell the shade didn't work. "How about you? How's your shade?" she asked me.
"I'm totally fine here. No eruos whatsoever." I hear sighed a relief. "But, I want to leave this place now. Will you go with me? Let's go abroad and start all over again. Maybe the eruos won't find us there." I said with a lump on my throat. "Are you crying Josefin?". Great, she noticed. "Uhmm.. yeah. Just something happened with the family but everything's good. I just want to leave" I cleared my throat. "No way. Camila is here with me. I can't leave without her. She sticks with me like a leech." Yeah. She's right. If we leave together, that only means risking my life with the eruos. "Can we meet?" that's all I can ask to her right now. I want someone I know to talk about Dae Hyun. "I have to go Josefin. Talk to you later. She's coming. Bye.".
The whole word felt like crashing over me right now. I have no one to talk to. I have no friends, well I have a few but no one will understand me. My mom would probably go nuts if she heard that Dae Hyun will call off the wedding. She likes him too much that if she's not my mother, I would think she likes Dae Hyun so much she would leave my father for him. Oh yes, my father. God how can I forgot about him.
"Hey pop. Busy?"
"A bit. I'm here at the office with Dae Hyun's father" Seriously? How can my life be so miserable like this?
I took a deep breath and answered, "Ah alright. I...uhmm..just checking you out. Take care pop. Bye." I hang up the phone and bump my head on the steering wheel. I bump it several times wishing a brilliant idea would come up. Oh god, just take my life so I can start all over again. I promise not to live in this country and stay away from falling in love. Tears started to fall once again. I wiped them out and raised my head and drive back home.